Pain [Nichigo's memories]

I sit here... alone... I just sit here while the events of past raceing through my mind. Blood everywhere! My friends! People I cared for! Almost all of them are dead. It happened so quickly and they had no chance. I hear their cries so clearly as if it would happen right now. I see their fearful faces and how they flee in panic... flee of something unstoppable. They're running away from an overpowerd force. I see how their weak defenseless bodies got attacked from something invisible and then they just collapse and die. I stand there unable to do something... I just watch everyone around me getting killed. Too shocked and too weak to interfere. All I feel is pain, faer and sadness. Then... I saw HIM...  killing everyone grinning and proud of what he has done. My fear changed into hatred. I HATE him! I hate him for what he did... that he destroyed 100 of lives within twenty minutes! Something shattered inside of me. I could just stand there... staring at him. He looked right back at me. Suddenly great pain shot through me... Next thing I remember... My Mentor, her students, Mii and me. "We are save now" They said...  and at the same time I knew we are the only ones who survived...
Now I sit here... yaers later. And I ask myself why everything had to come like this.